champagne kisses

It’s about a week to my 20th and in all honesty, I’m not really looking forward to it. And it’s not because I’ll be turning a year older (heck, some people already think I’m 25); but because of this situation I’m in. The Cliff Hanger. I don’t know what to expect next Thursday and yet a part of me just wants to get it over and done with. Mixed feelings? I certainly think so. I’m tired of saying I’m fine. Because I’m not.

I love these boys
Friends: Ross, Chandler, Joey!
How I Met Your Mother: Ted, Marshall, Barney!
Enjoy the picspam!!

Ross / Ted: The Romantic

Chandler / Marshall: The Child At Heart

Joey / Barney: The Womanizer

The romantic has his eye on “the one”!

The romantic does something epic, gets great results!

The romantic wants nothing more than to be married!

The romantic is a professor!

The romantic is a fun drunk!

The romantic and child at heart were college roommates.. and dorks!

The child at heart is prone to guy crushes!

But the child at heart is happily married.. thanks to the womanizer!

Although.. the child at heart and womanizer have a little bromance going on!

But sometimes the womanizer prefers the romantic’s “one”!

And last but not least, the womanizer is known for his catch phrases!

credits: x x x

They journey with me; we went through the past month together and I dare say we came out much stronger than before.

Mummy, Daddy, Eunice, Grandma, Grandpa, Abigail, Dawn, Vina, Conray, Pearl, Myren, Mindy, Shen Lynn, Joyce, Rachel, Chrystella, Aunty Jessie, Pastor Joshua, Pastor Cynthia, Aunty Janet, Aunty Siew Yong, Aunty Siew Ling, Aunty Jenny, Aunty Soak Wai, Aunty Angie…

Thank you for all your love, care, concern, and encouragement during this trying period

Many thanks to the Doctors and Nurses in Ward 9D and Ward 5D. Also, thanks to Dr Kevin Tan, Dr Daniel Kwek, Sophie, Darren, Suzanne, Aisling and Pei Shan.

I’m getting better, but recovery takes time. I have to be strong. For my family and everyone who has ever loved me (:

Love ya’ll ♥

The title says it all. So here goes…

1. This season, I’ve realised that being real is really important! Although I still have to be wise as to whom I tell what to, if you get my drift.
2. The person who is most important to me will be there for me forever.
3. My family will always be by my side. They journey with me, and I love them with all my heart.
4. You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have.
5. We all make mistakes and I believe everyone deserves a second chance.
6. I forgive, but I do not forget… That said, I do not hold grudges.
7. You could touch someone’s life without even knowing it.
8. I may not have a lot of friends, but I have been blessed with many close friends! I’m so touched by the amount of people who truly care for me.
9. Laughter is indeed the best medicine.
10. Sometimes the hardest thing may be the right thing.
11. No matter how far I run, I can never run away from God. Because he’ll always be there waiting for me to run into His embrace again.
12. Moving on is painful, it’s difficult, it’s an uphill battle but… it’s crucial and I can do it through Christ who will give me strength.
13. I have no idea what imperfect human love feels like. And yes, I’m not kidding. I think I’m disillusioned after everything that has happened.
14. Some people fall in love. I just had to crash into it.
15. I’m not afraid of commitment but am afraid of getting into a relationship.
16. Actions speak louder than words.
17. In my opinion, love is a verb, not a noun.
18. Life is complicated, but matters of the heart are even more complicated.
19. God made us to have a mind of our own; however, complications are of our own making.
20. Empathy is so much more important than sympathy.
21. I’m tired of being your consolation prize.
22. I’m not perfect, but who is, really?
23. Sometimes, sorry just doesn’t cut it anymore.
24. When your emotions are kept inside for so long, eventually, it will find some way to come out one way or another. That’s the wonder of the human body.
25. It’s amazing what some people can do. They just say these small little things, one sentence and it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever.
26. I’m a hopeless romantic, but I’m willing to give up true love if I can just be healthy and happy for the rest of my life.
27. Everyone says follow your heart. I don’t know. I guess sometimes your heart should rule your head yet at other times, your head should rule your heart. It has always been a two-way thing.
28. I care too much about people who probably don’t even give a damn about me.
29. Sweet talkers should just get lost, seriously. And stop taking advantage of us girls. It irritates the hell out of me.
30. I am stronger than I think I am.
31. I’ve realized that most guys can separate the physical from the emotional but most girls can’t. It sucks.
32. I am sorely disappointed with myself.
33. I am still learning to let go of certain memories.
34. It’s the journey, never the destination.
35. My weakness is made perfect in His strength.
36. Love never fails.
37. Fairytales never do come true.
38. I should stop asking “why, God, why?” but instead start asking “how, God, how?” It sure puts a new positive perspective on things.
39. When you hit rock bottom, the only way is up.
40. I am much more fortunate than a million other people so I should start counting my blessings instead of moping around.
41. My tears are precious in His eyes.
42. He is my fortress, He will be my strength.
43. My willpower may be weak now, but I am willing to try. Baby steps, and I’ll get there slowly.
44. It’s perfectly okay to cry.
45. Being vulnerable is alright, but you have to choose your moments.
46. I am way too naive for my own good.
47. There are some people I’d do anything for, because I know they’d do anything for me.
48. There will be light at the end of the tunnel.
49. At the end of the day, your family is all you have.
50. I use the word “I” too much. Must rid myself of this self-centeredness.

This month, so many things have happened and I don’t know where to start. Yes guys, I’m back! Not with a bang, but with a new perspective on things. I’m not perfect, I do make mistakes, and here’s hoping I don’t make anymore.

Things are really bad now. I cannot even begin to express myself. So I am going on a hiatus. And I’ll come back when things start getting better. Whenever that will be.

I am holding on for just. One. More. Day.

PS: To those who asked, thank you. Sorry if I misled ya’ll with the quote above. I removed it to prevent any more misinterpretations of anything. I’ll be fine, in time to come. Hopefully, soon. Because right now, I’m at the end of my rope. Thank God for my family and for my girlfriends. They are the only ones who make everything worthwhile.

PPS: I’ve decided to make my livejournal a totally private thing for close friends only so if I know you in real life, feel free to add me here at exclusivecosmos.livejournal!